final confessional

[Mookie Lee]

i learned a lot of tings about myself in this game. it wasn't because of the game, it was because of someone in the game. but none-the-less, thank you brooke.


jenny won 5-2, as she rightfully should have. it's nice when a PLAYER of the GAME wins... lol.


anyway, i'll always remember this game. even despite sierra hurting me deeply on a personal level, i really loved the game.

i CAN wait to read all the shitty stuff posted about me after i left though. *WAVES FINGER* you don't know me!!!!!!!


and ummmmmmm... well atleast i go out with the knowledge thta i kept my word... multiple times from multiple people i was asked to vote against jenny... by ace, by sierra, by others...

so that in itself is atleast satisfying... it's strange, i've never played with honesty over winning before... but i did this time. i just could never go against jenny. couldn't bring myself to do it. wasn't possible... lol! from now on i'm going ot make sure i dont get so damn connected!!!!



someday... maybe soon... maybe very soon. *points to a location on a map*...

maybe i'll just invite some of my friends and i'll call the class "EASE 101".


stupid me for ever trying to take the hard way. otherwise known as the "honest way." otherwise known as "survivor is not casted this way". otherwise known as "a farce".



and in true mookie form... these are my dying words... as bitter as the day i came into this world.





you know who you are

we should've stopped
as soon as we began
as far as this goes is as far as it can
both you and i knew that
this would never last
and you did not have me fooled
i just wanted it bad
and you wanted it less
everything i confess turns into you
(that line has more meaning than you'll ever know)

it's like a tar pit
that foul stench is hard to get rid of
it's like i got stuck
with some faith i do not have a bit of
you're like a snare
and i care too much, i kid you not
need a funnel as this drains
in a container, watch it rot
there's this mechanical being behind this smile
i should have never turned it off

whatever we had is now stained with the tiniest spot
nothing like the realization you're just a tiny little dot

and if you didn't want this to be real
you shouldn't have made it so real
and if you gave a **** about how people feel
you wouldn't have made it so real
and if you think i'm proud
you may be let down
cause it wasn't that hard to do what you did
and if yo uthink you did this yourself
then you're wrong 'cause you had help
you had a lot, more than anyone else

and so i will invite you
to every tear
that i ever shed now
and i hope you'll be here
you bought your ticket
enjoy the ride
you can sit in the middle
i'll sit on the side

(and that line had a lot of meaning that you can probably understand)






seriously though... what would i be if my last confessional weren't like bitter?


i love you jenny... you're a very bad person sierra. i don't even know you jessie.

i got more votes than one of the finalists.

lol.

[Mookie Lee]

dude i meant to have one of these: after that "you're a very bad person sierra".


or maybe subconsciously i left it out so i could explain it in another post while saying for a second time, and this time in quotes, "you're a very bad person sierra?"


oh three times.

well the third time's a charm right?





seriously that was just in the spirit of being bitter. much like a lot of what sierra said all game.



and in THE TRUE SPIRIT OF MOOKIE... i even disclaimed my final confessional.




HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! see ya in australia, bitches!


S11

[Sierra Reed]

[Mookie Lee]

that was all to keep in character, sierra.

seriously, no hard feelings k?

[Mookie Lee]

and actually, i prolly won't be playing in australia anymore

i am getting too close to my move date, i do believe... and it'll be a week-long drive in a U-haul so i wotn exactly be getting online much!!!